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Something I Need to Do and am ...

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I'm going to go sit in the sun. Soak in a hot tub fed by a desert spring. I'm going to read. And knit. and write. I will not be talking on the phone or editing on the computer. I will be taking pictures and I won't be back until after Thanksgiving. I promise to get back with you as soon as I return.


Happy Thanksgiving ....

It's about the Journey - not the Destination ....

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I am thinking about things. I'm trying to get well. I'm trying to do the right thing. For myself. For the people I love. I met with Peter (my counselor) this morning and I'm just thinking of changing my time frame.

I'm wondering if - praying about - and considering postponing another move. Just until after the holidays. I would 'like' to be there to celebrate, but I'm also thinking I need as much 'help' as I can get. Right now - some of the reason for my stress - I have started receiving benefits. I need glasses. I need to have a pap-smear (it's been 8 years) If I  just need to get as much help as possible here, since I'm in the system?

I'm kind of 'typing' outloud and trying to make the best decision. Maybe I can figure out WHY I choose the men I do. Maybe I can be productive here and come home READY to make headway. Maybe I can leave on my own terms and not feel I have to 'run'. But instead WALK away. I NEED to do thing…