Do Not Fear ....

Easy enough to say. "Do not be afraid ..." To write. To have some semblance of what is making you afraid. To stand in it's face and talk back. Refusing to believe what may possibly be a lie. Do not fear.

I have come to realize many fears in my life. Most have nothing to do with being in 'mortal danger', but none the less it is fear that paralyzes me and keeps me from moving ahead with what I know deep in my heart of hearts was meant for me to do.

Afraid of ridicule. Afraid of rejection. Afraid of offending. Of sounding stupid. Or selfish. Or self-centered. Afraid to say who I am. To be who I am. Fear. Deep rooted and constantly speaking the 'truth' as seen from the other side.

I have on my phone wallpaper - "Remember the TRUTH" - it's not always easy to discern - especially when you have these voices in your head. They're not saying you 'can't' ... they're saying you should. I should do it their way. I should feel what they feel. I should do - or be - or dress their way. So it's not that they purposefully degrade me or my dream. It's just that from their perspective - their limited perspective, as who knows WHAT a person really is or is capable of unless you have walked in their shoes - I should be doing or thinking or creating the way THEY would if they were in my shoes. But, they're not IN my shoes. And the fears I deal with daily would mean nothing to them.

Too sensitive. Too emotional. Too passionate. Too much of me, being me. So I constantly rearrange my self to fit the mold they want to pour me into. And then I get angry. And determined. I will not take your pill. I will not bend until I break under the weight of your wherefores and should be's. I will face this fear of your rejection, and decide for myself and pray to the God who calls me by name and clarify with HIM what I should be about. I will walk by faith. Not by fear. I will feel this fear and change the voice from other well-meaning souls to the voice of my Creator. Who thinks I'm awesome. He thinks I'm beautiful - and smart - and loyal - and He loves my tenderness. He loves that I am passionate. He loves me the way he created me to be and he will fight this battle with me, for me.

Perfect love. It casts away fear. It replaces fear. If we let it. Perfect love given from the author of love. It is THIS truth I have to be reminded of. The truth that lets me live free. The truth that consoles me. The truth that will inevitably sustain me. I am fearfully and wonderfully made - in the image of God himself. What have I to fear, when perfect love surrounds me and causes me to be who I truly am.

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